It’s been a strange week. I published a book.
I’ll talk about it, but first a soundtrack, in case you’re not already listening to something:
Like I wrote about in my two previous posts I got the final cover image for my book. I spent the remainder of the day tinkering with the layout of the print version, and then, at two in the morning, I accidentally published it – two weeks earlier than planed (link).
In all honesty, it was a little bit overwhelming.
I didn’t expect the print book to go live right away, and I wasn’t mentally prepared for it. In a few years, or maybe even months, I’ll look back upon it and laugh, but right when it happened it was really rather stressful. All kinds of questions I hadn’t thought about and didn’t have answers for rushed through my head.
Was this good or bad? Did I do something wrong? What happens now? How is the print quality? What if I made some horrible mistake and have to make changes? On top of that there was that weird mix of panic and joy, worry and pride that comes with creating something of your own and putting it out for the world to see.
It’s a cool feeling, but it’s scary.
I’ve had some time to calm down and think things over and collect myself now. I also have the next week off from work to chill and do some writing. I really need to get back into actually writing and not just worry about publishing and marketing.
Yes, it would be cool if it sold really well and I got rich from it.
No, I don’t realistically expect that to happen.
Yes, I have completely unrealistic expectations
No, I’m not going to stop dreaming.
However, I’m going to be aware that my expectations are way out of whack and I’m going to be ready for the disappointment when things don’t go as well as I hope. It’s part of life. I can’t let my setbacks put me down, and I can’t rein in my dreams.
I also took off work today and tomorrow. I’m feeling a bit under the weather – not enough to call in sick, but I really want some peace and quiet for a bit. I’ll try and tap out some words today, have a drink and some snacks and try to just enjoy the process of making shit up.
Then tomorrow I’ll try and get serious about the writing again. I’m close to finishing the second draft of part two in my Lost Dogs series. The current chapter needs a near complete rewrite, and will require a few changes to part one as well as some changes to earlier chapters in this part, but I believe the story as a whole will benefit from it.
After that, the next one and a half chapters will probably just need a little bit of editing and then that draft is done.
Also, time to start playing around with cover images for the first book. I really have a hard time figuring out what to go for there. It’s about a werewolf wrestler in a great city just where the desert meets the sea.
I guess I’ll just have a cup of coffee instead.
Also, I got the proof copy of the book today. Three of my friends already got theirs on Thursday. The colours are slightly washed out, but overall I’m happy with the book. It feels good to hold, and the pages are easy to read.
I could have reduced the font size a little and probably reduced the number of pages by a bit. The book would have been cheaper, but not by much, and it would have been thinner, which would have made it feel cheaper too. In short. I’m happy with how it turned out.
I won’t read it again though. I’ve read it too many times already!
Maybe I’ll read it tomorrow…